|Welcome to the strange things that go on in my head...|
Your WordsYour Words by Estelore
Your words fall like rain
and sting my lips
in soothing frozen kisses.
Your music is my balm,
my most exquisite pain.
Beneath my fingertips
the ivory dances,
my expression frozen
in a trance
You free my mind
from its frozen dreaming
and heat the blood in my veins.
Whatever you say,
I know I'll believe.
to trust you today.
InvisibleI built these walls for a reasonInvisible by ArchAngel4everrrr
Theyre something sturdy I can believe in
And right now theyre taller than ever
But I cant hold them up forever
Im not that strong
I know I need someone to rely on
Someone with a heart and a shoulder to cry on
But these walls push everyone away
I wish I could return to yesterday
But its been too long, and yesterdays gone
Ive been hiding behind a disguise
I show no emotion in my eyes
I do nothing that will give me away
These walls have kept me safe
But honestly what am I hiding for?
I know if I tried I could be so much more
Eventually Ill break down all these walls
So I can stop being
Maybe Im just scared of their words
Ive seen how much they can hurt
How do you think I got here?
Why do you think I disappeared?
They hurt so much
But now I can hardly contain it
I think I have finally made it
Im tired of being judged by their eyes
So I think Ill break loose tonight
Ive had enoug
ThoughtsThoughts:Thoughts by xxshard-of-a-heartxx
Something to think about.
Something to be told.
PainPain by dream-and-wish-4ever
To be able to look down
& see the whole world at my hands
I'd see all the people who tore me apart
& the people who tried to tape my peices back together
So, maybe its wrong...
to think of myself like that.
But then I'd know who really cared
& who else was scared
I know I'd feel like my true self.
& I could be myself.
I wouldn't feel dead & alone
Instead I'd be free & known.
So, if u listen closley to my heart
You'll feel the steady beat
slowly coming to a stop,
& the last crack ending it with a drop...
"You know I think it's strange, just a little bit deranged, that you think I'm gonna change to make you happy." - How Strange - Emilie Autumn|
"I don't wanna watch you wither when I know I could make you bloom. And I don't wanna watch her lead you into the gloom..." - Stupid Snake - Japanese Voyeurs
I am an occasional writer, a vaguely regular photographer and a music obsessed mad scientist. Final year ecology student to be exact. Baby turtles are one of the cutest things on the planet. Canoodle is a good word, but not as awesome as appendage, which may or may not be my favourite word. I watch too many documentaries for my own good and have a habit of spouting random bits of information at people (which may or may not be relevant to the current conversation). I have an obsessive love for Dr Marten 1460oz boots (especially the lime green ones), stripy socks and monsterkookies' amazing jewellery. I love gigs but have a phobia of crowds, which is not the best combination. Anything else?
My LAST.fm account, if you're at all interested in my music tastes: www.last.fm/user/IATSATH
My blog, full of my ramblings about bands and other random shit: iatsath.blogspot.com/